BABY???

i don't know how to start dis writting..many times i deleted my words.i push myself  try to express my feeling through dis line..
my heart broken when the others people around me asked about having baby..not me or husband fault but it was our faith n we should understand about that..myb ALLAH want to see either me can facing it positively or besides..
sometimes i smiled when 'akak2' at my school asked me about that..taught me to eat n dont eat dis n dis..do like that la mcm diorg tu dr n bidan je...but i always said 'baik kak'.i did all things that they taught me even though i did treatment with dr specialist around ipoh..
about money, dont asked me... i've invested a lot n i still redha but luck was not by my side..
here i'm just questioning why we as human always think we're right n never think about the other people's feeling...only ALLAH SWT know me.so 'akak' dont jugde me like u've power..just show a good attitude like ur attire..